and yet

from the grief notes

I still have your food and water bowls out.

I still have one of your beds in my room.

I still haven't vacuumed all your hair.

I still have your medicine in the cabinet.

I still keep doggie bags in my purse.

I still look for you when I open the pb jar.

I still have your bag of ashes by the front door (in case of an emergency).

I still watch for you when I open a ziploc bag (or any plastic food bag).

I still think to buy your food when I plan my costco trips.

I still wait for you to show up by my side when I flip my head over while drying my hair.

I still feel the emptiness when I come home.

I still can't sit in the chair in the backyard.

I still wear my tank necklace and get questions about it all the time.

I still tell everyone about how you were the very best dog and bubby.

I still wish you were here with me, but know your time wasn't forever and grateful for all the years we had together 🤍